Its the snowing season in other countries, the monsoon season, the raining season in singapore..

But i still love it, end of year makes me feel the happiest

Have been in IBM for half a year, actually i am quite surprised that i can survive so long in this company, initially felt like giving up so badly.

Have to learn so many things i did not learn in poly.. business is so so so different from science. But i still love it You get to learn new things, isn’t it awesome? haha..

Today is Shiyun’s birthday! She is 21 years old! Finally can get her passport back haha. Had a nice cosy dinner with cordelia and shiyun and baowang  taking photos for us! We are sooo cute!

Happy Birthday Shiyun!

It changed me. I broke me down so hard, and i fixed myself up.

It just feels so bad fighting alone against all the unfortunate that happened in my life.

Others are so lucky, i am not.

It isn’t fair to me. But.. I have to take it.

This is my life

Why am i restless? Because i am lazing around everyday.

Seems like i am losing motivation in life, which is terrible.

But this week was hectic, and lucky it went past.

Poh wang’s birthday this month and he spent it awesome! ALTHOUGH he didnt get his pressie.. but he is earning himself a big one this christmas. Haha..

Have performances and gigs next week, exciting…. HAHA.

And by bff is going army next week! will miss him to the max! will definitely update tml!

Lunch with the gang again!

So fast that i can’t remember what i have done all these years.

I even forgot how long i have fought for.

Life is too short to complain, should just enjoy.

Tomorrow is Pohwang’s birthday, so i should just say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him first heeees.

Hey guys! been a while!

Here to update! Because today is national day;s eve! Nothing to do with national day but i am loooooooving it~~~~ Working from home now, and seriously, i love working from home! Just wouldn’t want colleagues to talk about me too much if i keep doing this. Since today is hols eve, i took half a day to work from home. Sounds logical doesn’t it

I love working and hearing the laundry washing in the machine, i love sipping a cup of tea, relaxing in home clothes, and working I looove flex time to the max!

Yesterday joyce uploaded our Qi videos! I must say, we work beautifully together and we definitely can do much better Must say, i am such a crazy person, feel high because of such a small thing, but it meant something so imp!

Sat went Malaysia with Pohwang! Ate AWEEESOME 猪杂汤！Really very nice! Shall upload pic soon and simple life, simple food, but it makes me such a happy person! I enjoy rides with him driving in the quiet roads, love us chatting all day long over nonsensical stuffs.. just love being around each other!

Came back sg, and we went crazy walking everywhere, eating! haha. sarpino’s at bugis and I AM A FAN! haha.. then went home, walked around bedok and found specs we target to buy! I am aiming Zio and Pohwang is aiming braun buffel! What a crazy! He tried on so much! Armani, Nike, Braun, all suits him! I only suit Zio.. Not mio ok! Its a netherlands brand hee.. lovvve! but frame costs 208 alr! to the maxx yo! haha..

Alright let us enjoy the hols together!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

没争吵，没伤人的话。

我的爱情，让我很珍惜。。

即使拥有，但是还是很珍惜。。

在身旁的他，不放弃的坚持，不屈服的精神。。

我很开心，遇见他，到现在，还是。。:)

The person to make me feel less sick about working in that environment.

The person to make me feel charged up every weekend.

The person that will appear to accompany me because he knows i do not like to be lonely.

The person that understands me, and willing to accept any changes i make.

I thank him for being there for me. I love him with all my heart!

Love, is all about respect, remember to tell you that you love them today!

Work? Sucks,  but i treat it as.. My work.

Colleagues that form cliques, that talk behind your back, that plays around with words..

2 faced, all these, makes me feel like i am in secondary school. Its so childish, dealing with complicated women, this is worse. But i learn to take things well enough.. I love work environment full of challenges, i don’t like this kind of job, that i learn not much, don’t learn as much as i do in Yenom. I don’t know where this will take me, but i am definitely looking forward to my 1 full year service there and i shall kick off my ass at somewhere else.

Counselling on monday, really hope all these can be over soon. Look forward to september..

Want to start practising pipa, but yet i am lazy. I am one complicated person, yes. I will go back to orchestras i suppose, to make myself happier by being around music. Gigs are way too little.

Hope to make QI a stronger group by being all girls, we can have a all-girls image group. Hope TENG don’t give up on us, and i shall try to make it work by year end. Looking forward. Nothing makes me happier than performing. I do love it alot, still. The pressure is nothing compared to the few minutes on stage. I rather go through what i went through.. Sounds crazy, but yes. Because i love performing. With all my heart.

Now that i am 23, i have my plans for my future. I learnt so much this past year, about survival in singapore.

I will continue and persevere on! Trust me!

我习惯自己生病，自己康复。所以从来不觉得需要照顾。。

但是，今天听到他病得那么重，我笑不出来。

泪，一直流。心，一直痛。

这样的我，不适合这样的他。

我，就是这样的人。

现在有年纪了，反而静了

是朋友少了吗？还是少了很多的积极？

我不知道，其实要的，不是礼物，是陪伴。。

Its friday! I guess a lot of people in my office are feeling it too .. well definitely for me because i am not a workaholic heh..

This year could be a disappointing year for my birthday.

But i will try not to think so much

Anyway, words aside! Its GSS!!!

I plan to buy these in this season! (hope i got enough money lor hha)

1. Poloroid Camera

2. Billabong Wallet

3. Buy a nice bag

4. Loads of nice clothes!

5. A nice high heel that doesn’t hurt (OOOPS)

6. Pipa Case!

7. Pipa JiaoBu

Ok fine i know a lot of items inside can be bought in non GSS period cause it costs the same haha.. Just listing what i want to buy when my pay comes! OOOOPS! Signing offffff!

以前的自己，什么都怕，什么都担心，但也因为这样，自我的感觉很强烈。

现在，每天都四面墙壁，每天都盯着电脑，我的琵琶，变成装饰品。

昨天，我又把他拿起来了。

感觉像是好久不见的朋友，我和他打招呼。。

他回我，但有点生涩，我想是这样的吧，因为当初，是我放弃它的，然后我就放弃自己。。

但是，我觉得还是不晚，我想把他留在身边，陪伴我。

毕竟，琵琶是我唯一执著的东西。

How interesting is it? Because of a conversation, that made me realised how long i have forgotten that i have a dream. And now, i do not regret the orchestras that i left, i regretted i forgot why i loved music. I am going to get it back. Ok, back to my updates..

Hmmm, work is like more and more interesting. I wouldn’t say its the super excited kind of ganjue, but its more interesting because i have more and more to learn, my colleagues are nice, and i know i can do this. Never have i been in a company and there are so many nice colleagues that care and concern so much. I am blessed.

Recently lost a lot of things, lost my ic, lost my very important piece of paper. And i think boyf. for helping me to find despite working so far and living so far too. But angry because i dont like him always travelling such distances. Sometimes, i feel touched because of things he do, he is a very sweet boyf. Thank him

Its going to be a year soon, how times flies. 1 year ago, we were still slapping each other and bickering. Now, we still slap each other, its like nothing;s changed

note, and swims off!

Time flies, to think I worked at Yenom for 1.6 years, it is indeed something worth the praise, given my tendency to give up easily. Everyone asked me why I quitted.. Its not because I hate the job, not because I hate my superiors, neither are colleagues. In fact, they are very nice people. Some of them are blunt, some of them are naïve, some are childish, some are motherly. To me, it is more of like a place to learn and play. To give up my job, honestly speaking, I feel a little upset too, and even a tinge of regret, I gave up a potential promotion opportunity, to restart in a new area. New colleagues, new environment, new way of working. There are always pros and cons. My pros? I have a lot of freedom, I have my own desk, I have a lot of time to surf the net, or rather, the freedom to surf. The cons? I don’t know where to learn from, I have no one to learn from, I don’t know what can be coming, and I feel unmotivated everyday. Colleagues are of my age yes, but we don’t really click, and I choose to keep it that way. I rather things be natural than forced.

I miss my colleagues, I miss mixing adhesive, coating adhesive. Miss cutting liners, miss updating the inventory, I miss crapping in QC lab, I miss working with my boyfriend, I miss so much things in Yenom. And I can never get it back. If only Yenom is not moving to tuas, I would have stayed on… But be positive, cause I have more pay to spend! Hahahahaha!